Jesus lover of my soul

Jake likes it when I sing to him before he goes to sleep. I sing to him before naps and bed time, he wont sleep unless I do. SO today, before nap, I was singing Jesus lover of my soul. The words are Jesus lover of my soul all consuming fire is in your gaze, Jesus I want you to know I will follow you all of my days... When I got to this part my mind started to wander. I will follow you all of my days... Will I follow you all of my days? I know I will be tested, I think about my brothers and sisters in Christ all over the world dieing for there faith, and I think would I still follow you? Would I follow Jesus unto death like he asks? what if my children were being threatened would I still follow? I love my kids, I am not sure I could handle that! As I am thinking all this, more than a few verses came to mind. Matthew 10:28
Don't be afraid of those who want to kill your body, they cannot touch your soul. Fear only God, who can destroy both body and soul in hell.and Matthew 10:37
if you love your son or daughter more than me, you are not worthy of being mine.

OK, great. I know I am to love God more than my family... he commands it and says I am not worthy of Him if I do. I also know I am not to fear man but God alone. As I continue to sing the song with this all going on in my head... I think I will follow you all of my days. Will I? I want to, I can say that I will, but will I... I am so week!? Then by the grace of God He comes to me in that small and gentle voice and say to me 2 Peter 1:3
By His divine power, God has given us everything we need for living a godly life. We have received all of this by coming to know him, the one who called us to himself my means of His marvelous glory and excellence.
wow, I said to my self! He has already given me everything I need because I have come to know Him!!! I am gong to be OK! and beyond that He said in 1 Corinthians 10:13
The temptations in your life are no different from what others experience. And God is faithful! He will not allow the temptation to be more than you can stand. When you are tempted, he will show you a way out so that you can endure.
wow, again! I know that when I am tempted not just in every day stuff but even when I am tempted to not follow Him he is faithful to show me a way out because he loves me and gave himself for me!!! thank you Jesus that I can so completely trust in you!!! Thank you for your word that is alive and speaks to me!